Huh. I haven't written in...a long time. college has taken over my life. Which is weird, because college IS my life....I don't know. I feel so confused here. Somedays, I am so excited and happy I'm here. I am part of an amazing sorority, I have good friends, and most importantly, I'm pursuing what I love. But, at the same time...I am not happy. I wish I had gone somewhere closer to home. I miss my friends; I miss how every moment of my life was pretty much planned out. I miss the tiniest things....like being able to just go downstairs and have dinner. Here, it's a huge production--I have to find someone to go the cafetera with, plan a time, walk across campus...
oof. Okay. I probably sound like a whiney brat, because I am honestly so blessed to be able to afford this school, and go for something that I love. Which is a ridiculous career choice. But I'll worry about that when I graduate....right? Right? Anyone? Hmm.
I feel so lonely sometimes though. I hope I'm not weird; I hope that everyone feels this at some point. Because sometimes, I just sit and think, "What am I supposed to be doing now? Am I supposed to be partying? Hanging out? Because I don't even know where to start." Hopefully, this will get better with time, with trips home, and with visits....
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